Like finally.

Like finally, I have additional time at home to blog. Not that I'm busy with sth else other than my IPP. -.- Weekends is always that short to do what I want and have a good rest, don't forget my weekly report. I'm so glad, I'm only left with another month's time to get out of this 'hell' life. Nothing's really wrong or bad with my IPP company, I just get REALLY sick and tired of dragging myself outta bed and take the Creative bus to work, only to wait for time to pass and the clock on my desktop to tick at 6:00pm sharp on the dot, so I can finally take MRT, praying there isn't so many people that I can at least squeeze into the cabin and still have some space for me to plug my headset into my phone to listen to some music while dozing off. Any food on my table at 7pm is the same, since I'm already so tired and hungry at that time. Friday has always been the best, meeting my dearest after work and knowing I can sleep till 9am the next morning. How could I possibly work for another 10, 20 or even 30 years after I graduate, when I can't even last through this less-than-3-months attachment?

I stood by the very end of train track at Jurong East Station (the end where you can see where the train is coming from), I never thought that sight could be quite a scenery. I was looking at all the working adults going to work everyday (on the train, waiting for company bus, on the car stuck at the traffic jam), I wonder why do we have to work for 30-40 yrs, spending all your time in the office, working more than doing any other things more meaningful. Time just passes like this, work in your 20s, find your partner, married & have a kid, continue to work for another 30 years earning the money you need for your family, retiring at 50s/60s, carrying grandchildren and then wait for somebody to bring you to another world. Can life be more exciting than this? I foresee my future fate to be an OL which I hate it so much. I'm currently searching for my future, a future I desire, yet still stuck in a dilemma.

Some flash backs;
- Out with Mum at Orchard Ion/Central & Suntec City Travel Fiesta; Mum booked the Taiwan tour which will depart on 24 Dec, Florence (Dear's sis) will be coming along too. :D Can't wait for the dec holidays!

- Had a great morning stroll and breakfast with mum at Vista Point
- Caught 2 films with Dear at AMK Hub (He just loves the theatre there.); The Proposal & The Ugly Truth.

- Had awesome dinner at Ichiban Sushi twice with Dear ard
- Met Zoe, JJ and Jovena some time ago at Jurong Point for NYNY dinner and window shopping.
- Catchup with Anna at Westmall for dinner. MEET UP SOON AGAIN OKAY!

- Went to Woodlands Centre to buy Dear's watch for army and had Stingray for dinner. AWESOME!
- Dinner with Dear's family at 日本村

Speaking of which, another 3 days, Dear will be at Tekong. Everyone must be wondering why I haven't been saying. For the past few weeks, in fact, I have yet to feel he will be going in soon. Until last week, we went to buy his watch and I realised the day is coming. Worries have long been in my heart lingering. It may never be the same like now. I foresee a lot of changes happening in our life, no matter good, bad or worse, I pray we would be able to pull through and move on to the next stage together. I'm even more looking forward to Dear being stronger mentally and physically, more of mentally I hope. Words like "Take care of yourself", "Drink more water to hydrate yourself", I'm sure I don't have to say it out. He knows them better than I do. Just, don't worry abt me, alright. I'll make sure I'll be alright every single sec.

It affects me so much that I'm unable to send Dear off to army on 6 Oct due to IPP. I just hate it so much. Why must my LO come on that very day! Tsk. Damn it. If IPP results come out like shit, I'll really curse and swear. DAMN.

Oh ya, have I mention how sucky my results can be? Not as sucky as it seems, but it just pulled my GPA down! It's always when I put in more effort and it came out like this. Should I just seriously not bother anymore?


It's so windy right now. Just don't rain okay.

I'm so hungry`

I have been missing you dearly these few days.